Gotham

The heart of the city.

I once controlled the rhythm of the beat.

When the days turned dark,

Your spotlight shined bright in the sky.

I would drop everything

With no reason as to why.

I’d run to you, and if I had wings I’d fly

As fast as I could because for this city

I’d might even die.

Your conspicuous vigilante

Always there to save the day.

To wash away and decimate all dismay.

Rain poured, thunder growled in a vicious rage

And my cape was in the wind

Knowing there would be no wage paid.

Just peace of mind knowing my city was safe

From the thought and feeling

Of stress and no escape.

Now the sands of time have washed this city away,

Yet I still can’t convince myself that I shouldn’t stay.

What was once in order, now in total disarray.

With only me left with a balance to pay.

The price of wasted time and irrational effort.

Misplaced devotion, an unsuccessful endeavor.

Energy that could’ve been invested

In a less temporary treasure.

None of my actions were driven by pleasure,

But by the dream of this city lasting forever.

However, nothing lasts. To believe otherwise is silly.

Still, it hurts to know that there is no more love

In the heart of this city.

Q.A.

Seeds

Back and forth along life’s course…

I find myself lost again.

Searching for answers in a forest filled with weeds

Hoping to stumble upon fruitful seeds.

Or maybe, they will eventually find me.

But for the time being, I’m wondering what your mind sees.

Pondering what image of me you perceive.

The picture of perfection is what human desire brings,

But we both know those are merely a child’s dreams.

It’s no secret, my queen… I am covered with blemish like a hound with fleas.

Which makes me wonder: Am I really what a bride needs?

To be immersed in loneliness even when I’m right by your side?

The uncertainty of how to handle your silent cries will be my demise.

But I hear you, baby…

It’s just sometimes the noise in this forest drives me crazy.

Numb to what’s in front of my own 2 eyes.

Aware of what’s there,

Only to never have enough time to take an honest peak.

Instead, I’m too busy looking down at my size 10 feet.

Wondering how these dogs are able to support such a mess.

Never prepared for any of life’s tests.

Always attempting my best but to no avail,

Never failing to yield to stress.

The story of the young, Black American male

Through trial and error walking life’s trail.

Strikes tallied up prior to leaving the womb.

Systematically predestined for prison or an early tomb…

Fed a fairytale since elementary

About the benefits of school.

And if you get good grades, it’ll pay off soon.

But the only paying off I see

Is the debt toll from living the Rat Race American Dream…

Still. I search for answers through this wretched forest.

Feeling somewhat of a misguided tourist in a foreign land.

What’s worse is I don’t think anyone understands

What it feels like to be treated as just another grain of sand…

If this forest were a beach, I’d plant my feet, stand,

And feel the breeze graze my face with opened hands.

I close my eyes again and imagine what your mind sees.

While walking life’s course, in search of fruitful seeds.

Wildfire

Another rainy day in Louisiana…

How much water does this place really need?

Swamplands, marsh, gulfs, rivers, daily torrential downpours.

The heart of this place pumps H20 it would seem.

An abundance of life’s essential ingredient is hardly a bad thing…

But I mean, I could think of a place out west truly in need.

I guess that’s just life’s game. One goes without, while the other lives in excess.

A cycle that has been in existence since the beginning of time.

Survival of the most fortunate.

Maybe life has 2 circles instead of a singular.

One yearns for a miracle, the other has the single cure.

The yin and yang phenomenon shows it’s face, yet again.

The fortunate and misfortunate.

The former with nothing, the latter with everything…to lose.

As I sit and watch futile raindrops trickle down a glass window…

Whose authority is it actually to choose these rules?

As rhetorical as this question may appear to be…

I suppose life is merely a dream.

Is my subconscious taking me down a winding river stream?

Sharp turns, choppy waters. All leading to a penultimate waterfall.

The height of my expectations dictating how hard I fall.

Whether inside my punctured boat, or swimming freely immersed in the element.

Both have the same ending.

Engulfed in the vast stream, my internal wildfire reverts to clouds of steam…

How much water does this place really need?

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By Quan Robinson